I really don’t think I’m ready. I hate how everyone pressures you once you get older “You need to get a job,” “You need to decide what you want to do for the rest of your life,” “You need to think about college.” Sometime I really just want to get away from it all an escape from the craziness around me. If you read my last entry you know that I’ve been trying meditation but that can only get me sooo…far I really feel like I need to escape. I don’t live in a particularly big city that’s crowded or anything but I feel way to crowded here. Maybe I’m just overreacting but I need some space.
Lately a lot has been happening around my half I just volunteered at a vacation bible school camp and I’ve been running around trying to finish my homework not mentioning all of the work I have to do around the house. So yeah it has been really crazy but let me tell you something that has helped me a lot through this time…meditation. Everyday I fin 15-20 minuets of time just for me, I go into my room sit cross legged on the floor, close my eyes and block out the world. No interruptions. No distractions, just peace it is really calming. I got the idea from the movie trailer Eat.Pray.Love. I’m just writing this show you how meditation can work for you.
I’ve been doing a lot of reading lately. Yesterday my friend loaned me the book It’s Kind of a Funny Story (anticipate a review soon) and I blasted through that book in a matter of hours. It was a pretty easy read but still, hours to read a 300 something page book. That means I have nothing to do!!!
So I finished this book and decided to hit up my friend thenamelessnovelist to see if she has continued to write her story. So I get to her blog and everythign is changed the layout the text and THE CHAPTERS ARE GONE. So I start freaking out because I was getting into the book so I asked her what was up and she told me that posting a full novel was too big of a step for her, especially since she’s a perfectionist. So instead she’s trying something different.
She’s gathering photos from across the web, photos that look like they have a story and she’s writing a little background about them (I’ll reblog one so if you like it you can check out her other ones). I was amazed when I saw the detail and the thought that goes into wrinting captions like these for simple still life pictures.
So if your like me and want to read something that will intrigue you, and impact you then you should really go and check out her blog. She really is amazing, and I think it’s awesome how she expresses herself through these short stories.
Right now I’m deep conditioning my hair, painting my toenails, and using some pumpkin mask to even my skin stone!!! If you had told me that I would be doing all this stuff five years ago I would have laughed my head off at you, and you would be laughing while telling the girl dressed in nothing but soccer uniforms that someday she would actually care about what she looked like.
I’m the first person to admit that the whole world of beauty is absolutely not my forte nor my cup of tea. I never understood what was in and what was out nor did I care enough to try and find out. So I was always that awkward girl hanging out with all the guys on the handball court, trying to be the first queen of the court since no girls ever wanted to play handball. They all were over on the four square courts yelling at each other for not sharing the ball.
I guess you can say that I grew up and out of that soccer uniform wearing phase. But that girl playing on the handball courts laughing and holding her own with all the guys on the court…she never left.
I’d have to say this one is the same as my last one. I have to forgive my neighbor for not waiting for me, for completely disregarding what we had and letting his mother dictate who he saw and when he saw them. We could have had a really good friendship but he threw that away while I was in some other state unable to fight for it back, and that is something I’ve wanted to ask him ever since fifth grade. Five years and we haven’t spoken more than two words to eachother, maybe were both to stubborn to admit we were idiots, maybe he just has nothing to say and I’m too scared to say what I need to say…either way this is my answer.
Today I got my haircut…finally i’ve been in need of a haircut for a couple of months now, I could feel my hair getting all dry and split ends were accumulating. But yeah I walked down a couple of blocks and went inside the store and it was EMPTY, no one was there. All the hairdressers were just twirling around in their whirly chairs, it was kind of funny. I was the only on in there so a hairdresser asks me to come back and tell me what I went done to my hair, I tell her what I had practiced I want two inches from the bottom and it to be layered.
So around fifteen minuets later, maybe even sooner, the lady lets me look at my hair in the mirror and asks me if I like it, in which case I always say yes because in a couple of weeks it will end up looking really good. We go to go pay for it and it’s $16.95, for a trim and layers SHE DIDN”T EVEN HAVE TO WASH MY HAIR, and I already had layers so it’s not like she had to put them in they were already there. Why the hell was it $16.50, and it’s not like I have long hair it’s a few inches longer than my shoulder.
I was just posting this because I thought it was kind of ridiculous to pay that price for a simple haircut, then again I really don’t go to fancy places where it could be more. I don’t know maybe I’m cheap and I don’t know it…
Evangeline Lockson :)
ps: What do you guys pay for haircuts…reply below?
Anyone here like Alice in Wonderland stories but tire of the same boring plot line? I just found a blog that will cure this feeling and show you something you probably haven’t seen in a while…a different twist to Alice in Wonderland. I know what your thinking right now…how is this possible with all the different stories out there surely there wouldn’t be a new twist, how can there be? But let me tell you the blogger known as thenamelessnovelist has done so and posted it on her blog for the world to read. Though the story doesn’t grab you right off the first chapter its enough to intrigue you enough to go to the second then the third!!! I just finished the third chapter and I want more, I’ve messaged her and told her she needed to update ASAP. So if an interesting Alice in Wonderland story with a unique twist is what you need go to her blog…thenamelessnovelist!!! You won’t be disappointed :D
Now I’m one of those people who think that you should be true to yourself all the time, regardless of what other people say or what they think about you. That’s just me. But we all know that advice is a load of crap. No one anywhere can say that they have been true to themselves 100% for two main reasons.
I think that for the better part of your life your trying to figure out who you are. Have you ever just thought about that question? Every tried to answer it, well i’ll tell you it’s not easy. Who are you? Who am I? I sure hope that I can figure that out someday.
Everyone has given into peer pressure whether its drugs or alcohol or switching your favorite color from red to purple because the people you hang out with think that red is a color only boys can like.
So I’ve come up with a kind of compromise between being completely true to yourself 100% and giving into peer pressure all the time, and the solution is this. Take time to discover who you are sure your going to take some steps in the wrong direction but that will only help you take steps in the right direction in the future. So be true to yourself 80-90% of the time, this is a good percentage and will help with getting through situations such as high school where peer pressure is literally EVERYWHERE. Good Luck :D
The day has come I have a follower!!! Let me tell you it’s been a long time coming but I finally achieved my goal…having a follower. Thank you, thank you @letthemusicplay24 for taking the time to follow me (and your blog is amazing by the way, you seem really down to earth which is hard to find these days.) Yeah that is all I wanted to report on this fine morning… it’s 2 am here by the way. I’m sitting here on my dad’s iPod touch while Aurora yells at the computer screen (she’s playing Nancy Drew and I’m not letting her use the cheats hehehe). Have a wonderful morning!!!
Okay this ones an easy one. Something I have to forgive myself for is not remaining friends with my neighbor. We used to be really tight even though our parents absolutely hated eachother. He used to come over to my house and we’d play video games for hours, he was one of my best friends. Now we never talk his friends are jerks and I wasn’t even there when his dad died of cancer and I really wish I could have been. So that is probably something I should forgive myself for…
Okay, something I love about myself… Hmmm this one is kind of hard. I guess something I love about myself how resourceful I am. Whenever I’m faced with something that is broken or needs to be fixed I can usually come up with something to fix what I need pretty fast. Yeah I think thats what I like about myself :D
Hmmm…I think the thing I hate most about myself is that I let my fears and insecurities rule my life. For example if I want to go tot he mall I’d rather throw on some baggy basketball shorts and a huge t-shirt and know that I look bad then try to look nice and end up looking bad. Or if everyone is taking pictures of themselves and their friends I cover my face because I don’t want to take a nice picture and have someone think that I was purposely trying to do so. It’s something I think that is so stupid and childish and I seriously wish I could get over.
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself. Day 02 → Something you love about yourself. Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for. Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for. Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life. Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do. Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for. Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit. Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted. Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know. Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on. Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on. Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.) Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter) Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it. Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without. Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something. Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage. Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics? Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol. Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do? Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life. Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life. Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter) Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today. Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why? Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now? Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do? Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why. Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
“Okay, I admit, I don’t talk that much. I smile at the wrong times. I sleep with my mouth open. I have a weird personality. I laugh at the most inappropriate times. I have a simple face. I have a lot of built up emotions. I walk too fast. I love House to an extent that is insane. I have small hands. I snort sometimes. I speak the words out as I type them. I drop things a lot. I have an odd laugh. That’s me, and I like it. So you can just accept it or walk away, cause I’m not changing for anyone but me”—Anonymous & Me
1. smoked. 2. consumed alcohol. 3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex. 4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex. 5. kissed someone of the same sex. 6. had sex. 7. had someone in your room other than family. 8. watched porn. 9. bought porn. 10. tried drugs. TOTAL: 3
1. taken painkillers. 2. taken someone else’s prescription medicine. 3. lied to your parents. 4. lied to a friend. 5. snuck out of the house. 6. done something illegal. 7. felt hurt. 8. hurt someone. 9. wished someone to die. 10. seen someone die. TOTAL so far: 8
1. missed curfew. 2. stayed out all night. 3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself. 4. been to a therapist. 5. been to rehab 6. dyed your hair. 7. received a ticket. 8. been in an accident. 9. been to a club. 10. been to a bar. TOTAL so far: 9
1. been to a wild party. 2. been to a Mardi Gras parade. 3. drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night. 4. had a spring break in Florida. 5. sniffed anything 6. wore black nail polish 7. wore arm bands. 8. wore t-shirts with band names. 9. listened to rap. 10. owned a 50 Cent CD. TOTAL so far: 13
1. dressed gothic. 2. dressed girly. 3. dressed punk. 4. dressed grunge. 5. stole something. 6. been too drunk to remember anything. 7. blacked out. 8. fainted. 9. had a crush on a neighbor. TOTAL so far: 16
1. had a crush on a friend. 2. been to a concert. 3. dry-humped someone. 4. been called a slut. 5. called someone a slut. 6. installed speakers in your car. 7. broken a mirror. 8. showered at someone of the opposites sex’s house 9. brushed your teeth with someone else’s toothbrush. TOTAL so far: 18
1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper. 2. seen an R-rated movie in theater. 3. gone to the mall. 4. skipped school. 5. had surgery. 6. had an injury. 7. gone to court. 8. walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping. 9. caught something on fire. 10. lied about your age. TOTAL so far: 22
1. owned/rented an apartment/house. 2. broke the law in the police’s presence. 3. made out with someone who had a gf/bf 4. got in trouble with the police. 5. talked to a stranger. 6. hugged a stranger. 7. kissed a stranger. 8. rode in the car with a stranger. 9. been harassed. 10.been verbally harassed. TOTAL so far: 23
1. met face-to-face with someone you met online. 2. stayed online for 5+ hours straight. 3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight. 4. watched TV for 5 hours straight. 5. been to a fair. 6. been called a bad influence. 7. drank and driven. 8. prank-called someone. 9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex. 10. cheated on a test. TOTAL so far: 29
Grand Total: 29
If you have less than 10, write “I’m a goody-goody” If you have more than 10, write “I’m still a goody goody” If you have more than 20, write “I’m average” If you have more than 30, write “I’m a bad kid” If you have more than 40, write “I’m a very bad influence” If you have more than 50, write “I’m a horrible person” If you have more than 60, write “I should be in jail” If you have more than 70, write “I should be dead”
Okay so I’ve been thinking about it lately and I think that I should post chapters of my story on this site I don’t exactly know why I thought of this or exactly why I for that it was something I needed to do but I think it’s time. First off I just want to star by saying that I would never, ever, under any circumstances ever read this book or even think of reading this book for the simple fact that it’s a romance book. A poorly written one at that by yes that the genre of the book. Also this story will help you understand where I got the name Evangeline Lockson from, since she is the main character, as well as my fest friends name Aurora since she is the name I gave the character that was based off of her. Anyways I have to log off of this I-Pod touch an onto my regulR computer without making too much noise seeing as it is 12 at night and both ny parents are sleeping soundly in their room. So I will try and have the first couple of chapters posted soon and hopefully it won’t break down on me.
Ok there’s this guy on m street he’s probably around his late 20’s early 30’s and all he does is wait outside his house until someone comes. Then as soon as he sees there out there he comes over to them and starts talking. Now I’m not saying anything bad about that I just thing you know its a little weird. Plus my mom things the it is like a pedophile or something and doesnt want me around him. Not that I ever talk to anyone on my street anyway other than the occasional hello be how are you. Well that’s all have a nice 4th of July!!!
Evangeline Lockson :)
(PS I wrote this all on my dad’s I-Pod touh which was actually a lot easier than I expected)
It feels like its been such a long time since I’ve wrote on this thing (even though I know it’s only been a few days, don’t judge) and I thought I should let everyone know what’s up. I really haven’t been doing much lately just kind of chillin’ at my house, and cleaning, cleaning, and more cleaning.
This week my sister left to go to Peru. Yes you heard me correctly PERU!!! She’s doing a study abroad thing for her school so that’s been really interesting to hear from her while she’s over there and to see all the pictures that she sends to us. She’s so busy that every time she calls she sounds EXHAUSTED!!! And the first day she arrived and met up with the other students taking this trip she had been awake for a full 24 hours!!! That is madness she didn’t sleep on the plane or the car ride to the apartment where she was going to stay. I don’t know about you guy but that would NEVER happen to me.
Oh yeah I forgot I’m drawing a picture, now it’s a little (well who am I kidding) a lot different with what I’m used to. I’ll try to describe it and hopefully, when my parents are gone I’ll be able to scan it and show it to you all. It’s basically two people a man and a woman, but they’re not human people they have very angular slender bodies and the man is holding the woman who’s holding a scythe that’s drenched in what is supposed to be her blood (its rainbow colored). The man is looking at her, holding her with one hand, and holding her heart with the other.
I know it sounds kind of weird hopefully I finish it soon so that you can see what I’m talking about.